Up to date?

1 being the worst 10 being the best.

Depression: 5.
Anxiety: 4
Eating disorder : -3;2+37372;38'29

So, i know exactly what my eating disorder is telling me to do.
I get it but I'm trying so hard not to scare the people that stand by my side no matter what.
I'm losing weight. But not quickly which is ok because i can't stand other people wanting to get in my buisness already.
But on the other hand, my eating disorder makes me feel like the longer i take to lose thos weight, the more worthless i am.
It's true though.
Just like two more months and i can do me.
I can starve and not have the "oh shit, suddenly all my costumes are to big for recital" moment AGAIN this year.
Just please let me push through two more months of this.
Just after nationals.