Smart enough to know better, weak enough to lose the battle

I wake up this morning and make myself a warm cup of chamolmille tea with a drop of honey for sweetness.
Then I think "hmmm I should eat"
And even though I want to get up and get food, for whatever reason I feel like my ass is glued to this counter.
And finally after siting there for 20mins I got up and opened the fridge only to get an over whelming feeling of all 'all this shit makes me want to vomit' like I got physically sick.
Why is this happening to me. I wanna be a normal girl.