Run Away Baby

screaming inside my brain

i look fatter. havent lose any weight since my last weigh in
failure.disgusting.you cant do anything right. people tell you as much truth as those who hate you. everyone hates you.

it's nights like this where i completly get why people cut themselves.
theres something inside of you,
 and it tells you
you want to die
that you can't take the clutter brain anymore. and it's like eating at you that you need to get rid of the problem and when you think the problem is you, what can you really do. there isnt much that you can except kill yourself and when people cut themselves i imagine that they feel like they're getting what they deserve i need to get what i fucking deserve


medically. i'm currently fucked. i try to poop and practically make myself pass out dark from the amount of preassure i'm putting on my body but then after that i never poop so i probably have a weeks worth of whatever the fuck i ate just chilling in my stomach. which is shit.
i loook like a pregnant bitch.
starve yourself harder if your fat enough to look pregnant

im acting so selfish right now.
i left my phone at home, took my step dads handheld and just walked. walked away from my house.
from my house. from the deomons inside of my head
from the people who tell me on a daily basis i'm not good enough