insomnia kills faster than aids

Ohkay so that's a lie. I'm not sure if insomnia even kills at all, but I do know that if you have ever had insomnia, you know how I feel right now.
I woke up at 3:44 am.
I went to bed at like 11:45pm
After I took four ambien.
And I really didn't even sleep that long.
My tummy is like growling and I just can't even fathom eating right now but coffee sounds good.
Coffee or tea.
Or water I suppose.
Truth me told, I only kinda like bottled water because of the way it tastes in my mouth.
I like being able to feel my hip bones through my back.
Sick. I know.
Ohkay so opinion on calories, shit dude. The little calorie monsters have been eating me like no other. Suddenly numbers are scaring me more than they used to which is weird cause I never obsessed over numbers, I just knew I didn't like feeling full and had a shit load of foods that scared me, yes I tried to stay under 300 a day but never did I look at a grape and think "oh God! That's too much" until recently. So what changed, I'm not totally even 100% sure.
I want to lose ten  to fifteen lbs by spring break(:
If I do, everyone will be mad at me but I want to do it for myself.
Well this was a random
Shittty
4am post.
I'm going to go make coffee, goodnight y'all.