Random Thoughts Time..

i need weeeeed*still feeling rather ill and extreamly nauseous*my head hurts*my eating disorder basically controlls my life* "healthy and proud" are definitly trigger words so just dont* this bitch said i have a fat but.*bitch ill kill you.* please dont feed the whale* naked pictures are not fucking classy, hi like do you you know who i am* give me espresso * WHITE WINE TIME* yeah imma drink, my best friend just died* Still in need of a fat as blunt * that is the only time the word fat is acceptable* xanax maybe? * yeah ill take a couple of those too* i love cooking and watching other people enjoy food* valium??? yeaaaa some of that to please* i dont even have to eat anything, if i think about it i get nervous and guilty*  i feel like i can only eat around people who know about my eating disorder so that they think im eating but then i feel like theyre judging what im consuming* the awkward moment when you hear a freshman girl at your school say she's pro ana so you release the kraken on her and send her remaining pieces to outerspace* valentines day is tommorrow* im gonna treat myself topearls* i feel llike i weigh 1000000000* i want a fiat* and a condo* humor me * why do people who dont have eating disorders feel the need to glamorize them?!* i dont cut myself but i sure as hell think anorexia is my own little form of self harm sometimes* mom, you can send me as many motivational quotes as you want but it isnt going to make me hungry* or thirsty * lololololol thirsty hoes be like COCCCCCKKKKKK* ive stopped fighting my inner demons and we're on the same side now* ohmigod im deep* sometimes the scale is like "hey you lost two lbs" and i grab my chainsaw and im like dont be a lying bitch* jk jk i dont have a chainsaw * finding something to wear is impossible when you hate yourself.* im getting worse but youre to happy to notice* dont wanna wear tight clothes in fear of looking fat* look even bigger than i am in clothes that are to big for me* the struggle * namaste bitches* k no * girls who are like "ohmigod ana i love you bff forever come have a sleep over with me" or some shit and have a bmi of like 32<<<* you're a wanna be peice of shit* judge me* im bitter* one of my biggest fears is eating something i didnt make for myself. i dont know what other people are putting into my foods or how many extra calories/carbs/grams of fat im eating or if its even sanitary,* DID YOU JUST SAY YOURE PROANA BECAUSE IM GONNA PUNT YOU OFF THE PLANET CUNT*  im wealthy, outspoken, and bitter as shit * hate at me it's ok, * "its nice to see you eating a big meal" * bitch ill put this for down right now * i wanna lose like fifteen lbs * i feel so fat right now. of thats because i am* im currently a pathetic mess*